The world through the eyes of a sociopath. Part 4.

That's why I learned very well to study.

Learn to see, calculate, understand the arrays of actions.

And if a person usually sees some kind of love,.

He's got some romantic rose-colored glasses on everything,.

I see the benefits, I see why people together, what they want from each other,.

What ulterior motives, what benefits each of them has,.

Who's using who, who's how, who's manipulating who.

And I feel very strongly when someone wants to use me or manipulate me.

There you go.

That's why you gotta eat noodles. No, I had a moment,.

When I idolized people, when I didn't have enough experience,.

And that was probably before 25, okay, until 28.

Let's say 28.

And I could idealize for a while,.

But then I quickly idolized and depreciated,.

Because I knew it was an illusion.

But I've actually done it twice to stop idealizing everything.

Basically, once I stopped idealizing,.

I wasn't disappointed either, and in principle, I couldn't fall in love.

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